Small Hope

All those dreams lie unfulfilled

All those lives that pass us by

Careless thoughts torment my lonely soul

But my trust is still pure

Virginia Astley & David Sylvian - Some Small Hope

Fled Far Away

..I guess we all want to

And as I looked around, I began to notice
That we were nothing like the rest

Hold your horses now

We sleep until the sun goes down

Through the woods we ran

Deep into the mountain sound

Mountain Sound - Of Monsters and Men

Running under a storm that's approaching with all your friends and feeling nothing can stop you is one of the best feelings ever.

I was just going through Of Monsters and Men songs (as requested by my sister) and I really liked them, all their songs are like a fairytale, or just a simple tale, and they made me dream and remember, and so when Mountain Sound came into shuffle this image came into my mind. The running no matter what and having fun with that.

I think I had forgotten the feeling, well, no, that's false, we never forget anything, it's just that we aren't able to remember. Anyway, mountain sound made me remember the feeling, that feeling when you are a child and you start running with all your strenght not caring about much but the running.

Like that moment in Narnia when Lucy starts dancing with the trees under the moonlight. She doesn't really know what's going on, but she starts moving with the trees, she succumbs to the moment and enjoys each single thing of it. And so this is it.

Do you remember when every little thing was a big brand new adventure? When you could enjoy every little thing no matter how ordinary? Any stone with a weird shape was a magic rune waiting for you to find it. When being under the rain was much more than hiding somewhere trying not to get soaked or weeping out all your feelings. When being under a storm was fun just because you were getting wet and you could run and run and feel as if you where never ever going to stop.

When seeing the sun shining in the rain made you feel as if everything was going to be alright forever and ever. (I couldn't help but thinking about The Secret Garden, but I guess this wonderful book express perfectly what I'm trying to say here).

Hope you all remember of this things, the big adventures you used to dream about, all the wonderful things you imagined or lived, all those tiny perfect childhood adventures. 

A closeup of the girl and the forest critters..

I must say I had lots of fun and trouble drawing/painting this. And I know maybe this critters are not the best you've ever seen, but it's the first time ever I've drawn a deer and painted a fox, so I'm really happy of how they turned out. One more thing I really like about this one is how the clouds turned out, tryied to made a kind of silver lightning and I did not even know where or how, but I did it, somehow.

Anyway, I wanted to make them all happy, running all together and simply having fun with that. And at least I did have fun with it! 

Golden Autumn

Hideaway,

well they'll seat us in the sun

By the way

Know you've always been the one.

You'll ask your reasons why

what once was yours is mine

My baby's gone.

Ride away,
Gonna take me from my man

By the way

No they'll never understand

We'll have a bit of fun 

Watching everyone pass us by.

You'll ask your reasons why

what once was yours is mine

My baby's gone.

Hideaway - Karen O and the Kids

I just love Hideaway, and I don't really know why (maybe for line two) I always think of sunset when I listen to it. So I finally did a drawing that could really go with this song, if only in my mind. 

I feel as if, when you put both things together there's an ancient magic floating in the air, among the leaves that slowly fall to the ground.

It's been a week in which I've seen golden leaves fall as if it was snow every single day. And it was too beautiful. I simply couldn't stop looking. Sometimes, while walking, I stopped under the trees just to capture the moment in my mind. I hope that, as years go by, I'll always remember it.

This is sort of a different thing (not at all, but I tried my best). I had to make an illustration for a school project. So we had to choose one illustrator that we liked and try to reproduce its style. And that's what I did (well, tried).

Among all the amazing people around here and there (now or in the past) I chose Chuck Groenink because I've adored his style for so long and had in mind to try and make something like that, so when I had to do it for school I almost immediately knew who I would choose.

Actually, over the week I went through so many illustrators I love, and the doubt about which one to choose increased each day, so I ended choosing my first thought.

I worked hard on this, trying to reproduce the gouache he uses and things, but it's not that easy, I swear. Anyway, and though it was really tiring, I can say I've learned a lot going through this, and I had lots of fun. I know that this does not really look like one of his paintings, but I love how it turned out to be anyway. I think you can guess I love sunset lightning, especially when it's autumn and it makes it look as if everything was golden..

Here I leave you the complete piece I had to do, I made it as if it was part of a calendar:

Lonesome

I moved around from town to town

lots of people around 

but still so lonely.

Friendships would grow

then I'd hit the road

making up excuses for why I had to leave.

Always been too scared and unprepared

to let anybody get too close to me..

You Love Me - Kimya Dawson

I love the rest of the lyrics. I really do. But I left them out just because I don't think they really fit in here. Not at all. Not y..

As you can see I'm in a kick for Kimya Dawson lately.. but the idea of drawing this has been on my head for days. So please don't blame me. I can't help myself but thinking like this when I hear this song.. Because maybe I'm wrong and just being dumb, but I feel someone must be so lonely right now, no matter how many people around or how many little lovely things in the air (cause it's autumn). And it feels so wrong not being able to do anything.

So if I'm mistaken, sorry for caring too much. If not, please, please, please, even if only for a moment, close your eyes, think of a wonderful thought and I'll send you some pixie dust so that you'll be able to fly tonight.

The Girl With The Paintbrush

I know this is not a drawing, but still it has so many of my drawings in it. And this is really wonderful! So I wanted to share it here anyway :)

This is a video Charlie Darling from Les Bicyclettes de Belsize made with his really wonderful song The Girl With The Paintbrush using a bunch of my drawings. And not only I love the fact of seeing my drawings all put together, but always with this lovely song, which yeah, I do love.

So I might confess that it feels weird to see it all summed up, all the feelings that went on during months, I still feel them when I see the drawing, and now, if I dare to say it, they kind of have a soundtrack, and I can't tell you how happy this makes me.

I'm so, so happy for this, so thank you so, so much Charlie for it. It cheers me up every time I watch it ^^

Swing

Gave me a push and he started singing
I sang along while I was swinging

The sound of our voices made us forget everything
That had ever hurt our feelings.

Tire Swing - Kimya Dawson

One day I'll find a nice boy. And whenever he feels blue I'll go there and try and make him smile and forget about what brings the hurting, if only for a moment. And somehow that way, I'll be helpful. Maybe someone will really need me then.

A simple kiss because: "A kiss heals everything" "Um beijo cura tudo" "Un beso lo cura todo" "Un bacio guarisce tutto" "UN PETÓ HO CURA TOT".

I think that the catalan word for kiss, "Petó" is one of my favourites words. Its sound is so simple yet so wonderful. It's really little while its meaning is really big. It means everything, and resumed in such a nice little word that when you pronounce it, you're pretty much moving your mouth as if you were about to kiss someone. And isn't that wonderful?

Listening to Searching For Heaven

That song has always made me so sad. I know I try not to bring it too close to my heart nor my life, because I know if I do, if I kind of "open my eyes", I'll completely fall apart. But no matter the trying, it strikes really hard every single time I listen to it (which is pretty often).

Is one of those songs that you should not listen to when you're sad, 'cause they can do more harm than anything else. Even though I love it to the bones and it has a special place in my heart, I feel like this with Searching For Heaven.

I know, I know, Searching For Heaven is not the only one, but today I've found something that's the main reason why I've done this drawing up here.

"The idea that teenage girls are listening to a song like 'Searching for Heaven' is a wonderful thought for me." J.G. (here the whole interview)

And so, the idea of a Teenage girl listening to Searching For Heaven really got me. And I don't know why, really. Maybe as I tend to do, I gave this more meaning than it really has. But it felt stong. 

I don't know how to say it, but it was not something that I'd say I liked like "woaah yeah!" nor something that I disliked at all. It was just there, and it felt tangible, I'd say. And I don't know if I'm even making sense, I'd say no, but that's probably because I don't understand it myself. It just strucked hard, the whole quote, not just the idea. But I don't know..

Well, I don't know if I'm a teenager anymore or what (not literally though). I'd say sometimes. But just as some other times I'm an old lady and some other I'm still a 9 year old child (or less than that) I don't think age has really much to do with how you feel about yourself.

...this is a huge deviation from the main plot. Sorry.

Anyway, Teenagers listening to Searching For Heaven and probably, crying because of it.