The Secrets I'll Keep for Myself

".. those are the things I wanna keep for myself. The secrets I'm not going to tell you."

This was mainly thought for tumblr, but I did like it enough to post it here. I don't know why, but so many times I feel some thoughts or some self secrets can't be trusted to anyone. At least not at first. Maybe in a way I feel that if I do, they become something real. Something that's there, and reality has always been so cruel, so I try my best to keep reality away from my secrets. Some of them.

I just hope you don't think that by "secrets" I mean something bad. Some times they are, not always. Secrets can be really good things, and a mix of good and bad might be the very best combination.

The Moonlight

This was not supposed to be named "The Moonlight" but "Claire de Lune" because of Tomita's song, which I'm listening right now. But it happened that when I though of Claire de Lune, I didn't want this, but something a little bit different. And I could not achieve it, not today, but I'll keep on working and trying untill the day I'll be able to post the drawing titled "Claire de Lune".

At any rate, I do like this one for what it is. It's something simple, but I like the idea.


Long time ago when we were studying poetry in school I was told that the moon was seen as a bad symbol. Whenever the moon appeared, something was going wrong. I did not understand that, I actually thought that the teacher would say "the moon means magic, something wonderful and mysterious" but no, it isn't that. So the thing is that I got it all wrong, 'cause I thought, and I still think, that the moon has so much magic with her and love, mystery, even adventures!
I don't know, it's obvious some bad things can happen at night (even the moon has a dark side), that's true, but there are so many other wonderful things happening at night. And so many wonderful landscapes that can be found!

Imagine a lake, at night, with the moon reflected on its pale waters, and there is someone there, looking at those waters as if they were the night sky, and the high trees are all around. Everything seems to be white and blue because of the night and the moonlight, and there is some mysterious magic going on. Why people forget about the magic? It's just so important! magic is all around us. I just wish they could see so.

My own Portafolio!

Hiya guys! I'm pretty exited about this, 'cause I've just finished setting my own Portafolio, and that's pretty cool, because I've never done something like that.. it's as if it was professional or something, though I know I'm not!

Well, anyway, there I post my drawings and illustrations, nothing new from what I post here, even something less I guess, but there is no text there and it's like having it all together. Hope you'll pass by and maybe like it.

(You'll see some signed with Puchi and some with Tona, but know that it's always me)

pd. The funny thing is that I like cats, but I prefer dogs... (not pretty good at drawing dogs though, sorry).

What Could I Say?

How close am I to losing you?

Me pretty much right now. Just felt like drawing the present scene to try and capture the feeling. When you're down for no reason at all.. maybe because it's past midnight and I'm here all alone, maybe it's because of the music, or things I've come through during this last hours.. I don't really know, the thing is that it feels like this.. as if you know something's going wrong but you don't know what could you do to make it better. Not only about yourself, but even when you know about someone who's sad, but don't know what to do, 'cause you feel as if any word you speak would be meaningless, and a hug would not be enough, and as if you, as a oneself, would not be enough.

Maybe I should just go to bed right now, but I don't really want to, though I know the more I stay here, the more bitter the feelings are gonna be.. there's something so powerful about night, and one of its big powers is bringing buried feelings and memories alive once again. 

Today I've read something that went "You can love someone so much... but you can never love people as much as you can miss them." by John Green, I didn't feel like that for sure at first, but sometimes it seems that's so true.. ouch, this is going too far away. I'm sorry.

Goodnight. Things are gonna be better in dreams, for in dreams you can meet your secret wishes and longings.

pd. This was longer, but I just kept some things out, maybe because I still wanna keep some things to myself, no matter what.

Morning Chocolate

So going back to digital for a little bit. I was just having some fun but also trying new stuff on the way like a new way to go with the shadows, colours, trying new brushes, you know, those things you get to know so later you'll say, <oh, I could use that here!>.

I had some fun, but I realised that I've got a huge need to work with hands, and I wanna improve a lot with faces.. I don't know if I'll achieve what I want, but at least I'm gonna try. By the way, I've got a drawing in mind, but don't know how to start it at all.. hope it will come out soon!

Untill that moment, enjoy some good hot chocolate at morning time. 

pd. Maybe some Allo Darlin' to sweet the moment?

The Kid and the Fox

He was a lonely boy, and now that she had left home to try and find her own way, she was a lonely fox too. They met on the forest and they knew immediately that it was the beginning of a lifelong friendship. 

So, one more drawing in a "children's book illustrations" style. I love it! I mean, it's so enjoyable. This was done a while ago (June or July I think) and today I decided, that maybe I'm gonna go over the idea and make a little illustrated tale. This would be one of its drawings.. I dunno.. it feels alright, and it's a perfect way to keep my mind distracted from this "not being alright" feeling, that I'm having lately. I hope things will turn alright soon enough, but till then, I've got this. And I'm having a really great time with this illustrations. Hope you like them too. And I mean you

Hope you all are doing alright. See you soon with more illsutrations! :)

Twinkle, Twinkle little star

so I'll know, where you are,

Gleaming in the skies above

Lead me to the one who loves me.

PD. This drawing reminded me of something:

"To me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me. To you I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world.." The Fox - The Little Prince 

(I hope you all read that wonderful, incredible and nice book. Marvelous woud be the word for it.)

It's a Brrrrrr Birthday

This felt perfect to draw. I've been struggling so hard not only to draw forest animals but also to bring alive all my tradiotinal drawings.. I mean, I've used the scanner this time! Oh! it's actually a little bit annoying to go and scan your stuff, but it is much more better this way.

I don't really know what was on my mind, but suddently, the idea to draw a bear in his birthday day would be so great! so I tried, and I am so glad I did. I was afraid I would mess it all up because, you know, it's a bear! And I don't really know how to draw bears, and I did not use any reference. So what I did was close my eyes and remember any bear I've ever seen. And I think it worked! I hope so. And I hope you'll like it.

So with this, you'd better listen to a magic, soft, forest melody. A sweet one, which would be playing on a forest party with all the other animals there. Not too party music, just something cute and maybe kind of a happiest melody? uhhh..

Do you think he will like the present? though, you see it's not really well wrapped, but 'cmon, the animals did it, and their hands are not like ours. They did their best though.

Take me to your World...

... I'm not afraid of being hurt.

Intruct me, let me into your world of sadness, to what's hided behind your eyes. I don't care how much, or how difficult, or how hurting it can be, I'll cope with that. I know I'll do. But if you leave me on my own I'm gonna get lost. I will not know what to do anymore. I will not know how to feel.. how to live.


A more darker evening than what I expected, been listening to some songs that bring those feelings. Here I'll leave you some lyrics:

Touched
you say that I am too
so much of what you say is true

I'll never find someone quite like you again
I'll never find someone quite like you, like you

The razors and the dying roses plead
I don't leave you alone
the demigods and hungry ghosts
god, god knows I'm not at home

I'll never find someone quite like you again
I'll never find someone quite like you again

I looked into your eyes and saw
a world that does not exist

I looked into your eyes and saw
a world I wish I was in

I'll never find someone quite as touched as you
I'll never love someone quite the way that I loved you

Vast - Touched

Snowflakes Are Dancing

It might just be for a few minutes or just some seconds, but that is enough. In that short time, as snowflakes fall from the sky, they dance. They dance in such a majestuous way! They go up and down, turning and turning around, one hand raised, eyes closed, slow movements and a soft breeze to guide them. When they finally get to the ground, they fade with the snow and die. But if you look closely, you will see their happy faces because they are glad to give you the best performance you have ever seen.


Been listening to a wonderful album all night called "Snowflakes are Dancing", done by Isao Tomita, and well, you know, snowflakes are dancing! I actually thought some small text would sweet it and maybe make it a little bit magic, so I made up something. I'm just so glad I've been introduced to this album, I'm really, really thankful. So.. Thanks!

Those tunes are just really wonderful, and things like this drawing above are the ones that came to my mind while listening to it, as well as the text. I don't know really, but I'm glad this came out the way it did, I just hope this next winter I'll see some snow. I really hope so!

I've used as a small reference, maybe more a guide than a reference, Disney's snowflakes from Fantasy, 'cause I've always thought those where wonderful, and wanted to do something like that. Hope you'll like this one. And I hope there's more magic to come!

the DRUMS

the DRUMS

Connor Hanwick

Jonny Pierce

Jacob Graham

I'm in a "fan art" mood today, so I started doodling the Drums, I wanted to include Myles too, but I was too tired by the time I finished Connor.. maybe one day :)

So here are the Drums, and yeah, I was listening to them the whole day while making this.. It's been a while since I last made a piece starting in traditional art and ending the colouring in the computer.. I'm so sorry for the bad quality, but I cannot do much more since those are photos from my sketchbook, I just miss my scanner! I still have it, and it works, but I have to take it to the other computer and move everything with a pen drive and all that stuff, and stairs and .. and.., I'm just too lazy for such thing I guess, that's why I mostly do it all on my computer and you don't get to see more than a 20% of all the drawings I do and I think are alright to show..

sorry.. I didn't want to complain that much. Not here, anyway, and I've already done it. Well, hope you like the Drums and this drawing, I feel there is more fan art to come soon!

Take care,

Tona.

pd. I do apologize for the bad way I drawed/painted the guitar and the synth... that's what happens when you're not using references for something u're not used to see nor draw.. I'm so sorry for that.. just do as if it did not exist!

Two Wounded Birds

Two Wounded Birds, they still care a lot for each other. I wonder if they did hurt each other and now try to heal the harm or they were hurted by someone else, and are together because of that, of understanding and protection and love.


Well this was done because there is that wonderful band called Two Wounded Birds who have just relased their full length album and it's wonderful, really!  and then I don't really know when (maybe I've always had it in my mind since I first know about them) this came to my mind.


Hope you like it.

pd: I made this too: