They say so but..

..It's a game I don't wanna play.

I'm 50% done with my final exams, so I could do some quick sketches today, which I posted on Tumblr, but I'm kinda liking this one, so I'm posting it here too. Like the way it turned out to be, and the tetures, and colours! (I know you're not supposed to say so about your own piece)

Anyway, I'm 50% more happy today as I'm almost done with it, still a week to go, but we'll get there alright, I'm sure! And I've never been really exited about summer, but somehow this year I am, not about beach and not about the sun, but surely about finally being able to have time to start new projects (I wanna play with watercolours, yep!) and so many other things, but also, I'll have time to get to see my friends and stuff, and I trully miss them.

Oh! also, wanna wear nice t-shirts. I guess that's a big reason too.

Hope you're having an alright mid-week. Best wishes for the rest of it.

How are you?

I did this drawing a year ago, but never got to post it for my own reasons, which I still recall, but today I've seen it and I've just tought it was kind of the perfect drawing to post today.

Someone's drawing and thinking of someone, and to that one little question, no, it's not me. Still I've been there so many times before. And I wish I could be drawing right now, but it's been almost a month and I haven't been able to spend a good amount of time in any drawing. I'm just stuck here, studying and working, and studying again. So many ideas running through my head and I'm not able to portay any of them. But  don't wanna complain about it, it is what it is and I hope this days will go fast and soon I'll find myself with time to draw and do things again.

I still recall drawing this little piece one year ago, and I sill believe it is so important, for me, at least. Wanted to add so many stupid details, the ones no one seems to really get, and so I did. And I, both, desperately hope no one really understands them, and that someone gets to know why they are here and what they mean. I make no sense, I know.

Hope you're having a nice May, I, somehow, did.

This is just to say I'm still alive and one day soon I'll start posting again. Can't wait for it!


ps. I don't know why the title is what it is. I called it this way one year ago, and is the one thing about this drawing I can't recall why I did it.

Dec 6: Drawing by the Tree

I'm sorry, I did not have much time today to do anything I got planned to do. I just worked traditionally so... 

Actually, I did everything I had to do, but in fact, did not finish one thing.

I spend today decorating everything for Christmas and I did had much fun with it! Hope you had a great time too and that you're enjoying the way your home looks now that everything is brighter with some little lights here and there.

I'm gonna be sitting by the tree just listening to christmas music and drawing and drawing.. goodnight.

What's the use?

If words can't touch you, what's the use of using them? If I'll never reach you, what's the use of stretching out my hand?  If, whatever I do, you'll never care, what's the use of keep trying? 

If you try not to get too attached to things, what's the use of having those things? They become meaningless and I don't believe you if you say so.

I'm tired of trying, of feeling stupid, crazy, of being a foolish always repeating myself, always doing the same, and things always ending up the same way. Why can't time make any difference?, why I keep on going and walking the same way, falling every single time in the same gaps?

I'd say it's even boring. I don't know what to expect anymore.. someone who'll care? maybe? Is that even possible? Someone who really cares? not being number two, three, four.. etc. No, being number one, just for once.... I think I'm asking too much. I'm sorry.

Not at my best, and making a big effort not to say a word where I shouldn't.

And it's all for a reason as simple as this:

No one cares about the ones that care.

The Secrets I'll Keep for Myself

".. those are the things I wanna keep for myself. The secrets I'm not going to tell you."

This was mainly thought for tumblr, but I did like it enough to post it here. I don't know why, but so many times I feel some thoughts or some self secrets can't be trusted to anyone. At least not at first. Maybe in a way I feel that if I do, they become something real. Something that's there, and reality has always been so cruel, so I try my best to keep reality away from my secrets. Some of them.

I just hope you don't think that by "secrets" I mean something bad. Some times they are, not always. Secrets can be really good things, and a mix of good and bad might be the very best combination.

The Moonlight

This was not supposed to be named "The Moonlight" but "Claire de Lune" because of Tomita's song, which I'm listening right now. But it happened that when I though of Claire de Lune, I didn't want this, but something a little bit different. And I could not achieve it, not today, but I'll keep on working and trying untill the day I'll be able to post the drawing titled "Claire de Lune".

At any rate, I do like this one for what it is. It's something simple, but I like the idea.


Long time ago when we were studying poetry in school I was told that the moon was seen as a bad symbol. Whenever the moon appeared, something was going wrong. I did not understand that, I actually thought that the teacher would say "the moon means magic, something wonderful and mysterious" but no, it isn't that. So the thing is that I got it all wrong, 'cause I thought, and I still think, that the moon has so much magic with her and love, mystery, even adventures!
I don't know, it's obvious some bad things can happen at night (even the moon has a dark side), that's true, but there are so many other wonderful things happening at night. And so many wonderful landscapes that can be found!

Imagine a lake, at night, with the moon reflected on its pale waters, and there is someone there, looking at those waters as if they were the night sky, and the high trees are all around. Everything seems to be white and blue because of the night and the moonlight, and there is some mysterious magic going on. Why people forget about the magic? It's just so important! magic is all around us. I just wish they could see so.

Morning Chocolate

So going back to digital for a little bit. I was just having some fun but also trying new stuff on the way like a new way to go with the shadows, colours, trying new brushes, you know, those things you get to know so later you'll say, <oh, I could use that here!>.

I had some fun, but I realised that I've got a huge need to work with hands, and I wanna improve a lot with faces.. I don't know if I'll achieve what I want, but at least I'm gonna try. By the way, I've got a drawing in mind, but don't know how to start it at all.. hope it will come out soon!

Untill that moment, enjoy some good hot chocolate at morning time. 

pd. Maybe some Allo Darlin' to sweet the moment?

In The Snow

I was just doodling around and started doing this.. and yeah, It was inspired by Tumnus (the idea at least) actually she was not wearing a scarf at first, but then a lovely snowy melody played and I thought it would be wonderful that she could be standing there in the snow, and thought that she might get cold, so I added the scarf (it seems it's enough with that to stay a little bit warm..)

The idea, actually, was that she was living on our world but had come from another magical world (just like when you go to Narnia, or some other magical place, but the other way round) and had been living at our world since she was pretty young, that's why she's wearing a dress, 'cause she grew used at all that stuff. And it's supposed to be around the 20's, 'cause I like it, that's all the reasons why.
Maybe she wishes to go back to where she belongs, or maybe she's alright where she is, who knows?

Hope yo like it, I was missing all the drawing stuff 'cause I've been reading all this days (whenever I had some free time) and I did not much drawing, and what I did, I did it in the traditional way, I don't think any of that will get posted here, maybe just one of all those drawings.. I don't know, I'm still thinking about that, not pretty sure of it.

Cover It With Flowers

This is just a practice drawing.. I liked the real photo so I decided to try and practice with it. I just used it as a reference to draw the basic lines and get the idea, and then I painted it. I did not use the photo as a reference for the painting, that's why the skin does not have the same tone and stuff like that. 

Anyway, right now what I really wanna get right is the human body, and now that I have much more free time, I think I'm gonna try and practice a lot, so don't get mad at me if I'm posting hands or feets and others..

I also tried a new way of painting in which the paper is over the colour layers.. I kinda like it.

Posted it on my tumblr first but thought I would post it here too.

I really like the idea that this could do for an album cover or something..