I'm Trying To Reach You

... even though it seems impossible, I'll keep trying. You know that I'm a fool and I don't really understand things. I just think I don't, 'cause if not, I would have given up long time ago.

I wish you would just turn around and realise I'm here. I want you to care.


You know that feeling when you're trying so hard to reach someone, to help that someone, but you know in advance that no words you speak will work. Actually not even a hug, you feel so useless for that one someone you care. You know how sensitive that one is, like a lovely piece made of glass that easily brokes, and you are just so clumsy that you know you'll probably broke him/her.

You just feel helpless.

It would be so easy to sit next to you and let you know you're not alone, but I can't. You're not here, and thus, I cannot sit by your side.

Little summer lights

Been thinking about how much can somebody love. I guess you can never really tell for sure..

I've been on vacations for two long weeks and unable to draw (at least something that where not small sketches in a very, very, very small notebook) and I really wanted too, I had that need of drawing and almost everyday I had a new idea for a drawing.. tryied to sketch down as many as possible and this days that I'm finally able to draw again, I'll try and make those drawings..

Anyway, I've seen so many wonderful things, and I guess that if it was not for this vacations I could have never ended up with those ideas.. oh! and lately I've been really amazed with the effect of electrical lights on a drawing at night, so maybe there'll be a little bit of that.. I don't know.. I think they are really nice and that these lights can make a scene or a moment magical somehow.

Oh, and maybe you've already noticed this, but I tryed and changed the guy's hairstyle..maybe it's not that different, but I like it..

Hope you're having a nice summer with cool nights and little coloured lights shining through the dark of the night..

(there's a sweet melody to go with it, at least in my head, but you can use whichever you think will fit the moment. You never know what wonderful things can be on somebody's head!)

Cover It With Flowers

This is just a practice drawing.. I liked the real photo so I decided to try and practice with it. I just used it as a reference to draw the basic lines and get the idea, and then I painted it. I did not use the photo as a reference for the painting, that's why the skin does not have the same tone and stuff like that. 

Anyway, right now what I really wanna get right is the human body, and now that I have much more free time, I think I'm gonna try and practice a lot, so don't get mad at me if I'm posting hands or feets and others..

I also tried a new way of painting in which the paper is over the colour layers.. I kinda like it.

Posted it on my tumblr first but thought I would post it here too.

I really like the idea that this could do for an album cover or something.. 

Sad little girl

Sad day, and I don't even have a big reason for.. it just feels like this today. I was just sketching some sad girls while listening to Perfume Genius.. and this came out. So ended up painting one of the drawings.. trying a new, easy way of painting.

I don't know what else to say, it's funny that when you're sad you can speak out your heart much more easily than when you're happy. At least that's how I work. I also think that actually, drawing sad people is a way to relieve the sadness, as well as a musician would do it with sad songs and writers with sad stories. I believe the hardest thing to do is draw happy people, sing or write about them, when you're sad and you're not part of it. At least, when I draw those type of things I'm usually crying. It's funny the way it hurts.

Maybe I'll be posting some old drawings this days. When they were done, though I love them to the bones, I could not post them 'cause they were too personal, now that that feeling is not anymore the same, I think I can post them.

Why?

"Why are you always saving me from falling? Why are you always there to catch me, when it's me the one that wants to be there for you? 
It is me the one trying to put a smile on your face. I am the one who wants to help you whenever you need me, and hold you when things go wrong and all you wanna do is cry.
And so, if I am the one who's doing it all for you, why are you always there, holding me in your arms? Where's that world of sadness of your heart hidden? I know it is there, under that mask you wear to protect me."

I just wanna say that it doesn't matter who's saying this (the boy or the girl), the only thing that's important is that feeling that's in there, but I must say that the idea of the guy being the one speaking those words is so sweet to me.

In other news, I guess it's time for me to start a research about male's haircuts. I'm always doing the same, or variations of that one.

At the Early Morning Light

Maybe one day I'll share your smile then. But untill that moment I'll hold on my dreams.

Right now I really wanna go out at the very early morning (or late night) just to feel that cold breeze and see the very first light in the morning.. maybe sit on the grass and stay there.. not doing much but enjoying the moment.

Have you ever thought about all those dreams you once had? You really felt them.. but as years gone by, you forgot about them.. they, somehow, banished. I've always believed, though, that the feelings for something or someone never disappear. You can love someone or hate that someone, but if you once cared,  in some or another way, you'll always care. I like to think that way, 'cause if not, life would be too sad.. 

I just can't stand the idea that no one is caring.. I know that's mean, but I can't help it. If someone cares, you don't feel so alone.. if there's someone out there trying to understand you, to get what you really wanna say, the feeling you put into something you've done.. oh, I wish there's someone out there who undestands it.

and.. um... yeah.. I want that lovely shirt..

Tora!

Tora! Tora! Tora! Tora! 

Well, I think I've never talked about Tora here, but she's my beloved character. Made her few years ago, trying to write all the story, but I must accept I'm not good at that. It has been so long since I last draw her, and I was already missing her. 

She's the new queen of "Rubturbs" where, as you can see, red is the main colour. And yep, they are all from a land with 4 different countries, and each one has a different colour. So Rubturb's colour is the red one, and the royal family has red hair and red eyes too. They are desert people, and I love to imagine her wearing baggy clothes, and, though you cannot see it, going barefoot.

"When you first saw her you could not take your eyes off. Her red hair sparkled through sunset, as if it was fire itself. Her clothes, dancing with the wind, seemed to be part of that fire too, and as she approached she always looked in your eyes with her deep red ones. And then, that was it. You were enchanted."